My car

When I was in high school I ran my car out of oil...twice! How horrible is that? It taught me that I need to be more responsible. I am now driving my great grandpa's car. It's a 2001 Kia Sportage. My car was a 1998 Saturn. I miss my car! It is now in the shop and it will cost me about $1,000 to fix it. I want to buy a new car but being a full time student it is almost impossible. God teaches us lessons everyday. And he sure taught me one about taking care of something you need.

Favorite Music

When someone asks me what my favorite music is I tell them everything! I listen to every type of music out there. It's funny because I can flip through the radio stations and almost every song that comes on any station I can sing word for word. Songs from country to heavy metal.
I was talking to some people and I told them how I wish I could memorize school work like I memorize songs! That would be so nice. Music is so much more then sound. It is a way of life! Every song has a meaning that can speak to me somehow! When I've had a bad day I listen to music. When I have a good day I listen to music. I'm always listening to music. I don't know any person that doesn't listen to some type of music.

This I Believe...my feed back!

When I read this essay "The Present Is Where I live" it truly touched me! I work in an Emergency Room and I see people who are on their death bed everyday. You get to a point where your numb. Death doesn't bother you. You can't let it get to you because it will overcome you and take you down. In his essay he talks about his brushes with life and how it has helped with the lose of his loved ones.
Not many people understand death. It takes seeing death all the time or being at the grace of God for you to get it. I now am not afraid of death. I love life and as long as I am living in the present there is nothing more I can do.
The writer also talks about being with his loved ones as they pass. Let me tell you that it is not easy. I was by my grandmothers side as she took her last breath. It was sad of course and oddly happy at the same time. I knew she was in a better place and no longer had to deal with troubles of this world. I know she is now looking down upon me, watching over me and protecting me. So live for today...you never know when I may be your last!

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Life When You're Only 20...sad!

So there you are...you just turned 2o and you're so excited. You're not a teenager any more and you are starting to live your own life. Then it hits you...CRAP I gotta work full time, go to school full time, pay bills and try to have a social life. It looks so easy for our parents. I guess it's just because they have had a lot of practice. Growing up can be fun and that's what I have to keep reminding myself. That time on this earth will go by so fast. So I'm going to make the most of it. And hey next birthday I can legally drink! YAY!

What I Believe In

I have tons of belifes. I think they come from the way I was raised. I remember when I was really little my great grandma telling my dad, "Don't sweat the small shit and remember it's all small shit." Back then I had no idea what she was talking about! Now that I 'm older it all makes since and I truly believe it. This time on earth is so short compared to life in heaven. So what is the point of freaking out? You always here oh don't worry you only missed five minutes of class don't beat yourself up about it. Well as long as you are striving to be your personal best then it shouldn't matter. You know when you've messed up and when you need to step up and be better. So don't let it get to you. In the grand skeam of life it really is all small shit. Take what you want from my grandma's saying. It may mean something totally different for you. Either way it still means something.

The day in the life of...ME!

I wake up in the morning roll over and shut off that annoying alarm clock. I lay in bed for another 20 minutes dreading the fact that I have to get up. When I finally get up it's straight to the shower to try to finish waking up. I get out and try to make myself beautiful. An hour later I'm ready to head to school. I have school from 9:30 to 5:35. It makes for a long day. It gets better, or worse depending on the day, I go home to grab a bite to eat then it's straight off to karate. Then finally it's home to do homework and study. Then my favorite time of the day...BED! On days I don't have school I'm with my family and boyfriend or at work. I work at Swedish Medical Center in the ER. I see a lot, do a lot and learn a lot! I love being able to help people! That's why I am going to school. Overall during the school year life is boring!

If I became President what the heck would I say?

Hmm...if I ran for President first of all America would rock! Just the thought of me becoming President scares me and my friends. Okay now lets think what would I say to the American public? I would start by thanking everyone how voted for me, the little people. Then I would thank my campaign peeps and maybe my family and friends who would've had to put up with me! I, of course, would have someone write my speech for me then I'd read over it an hour before. I would be in hair and make up for hours looking perfect for all to see. We know one thing for sure I'd be the hottest president ever! George Washington eat your heart out! I'd take my time walking out on stage as if it were a runway. People would throw roses at my feet because they would adore me so much! Okay hold the phone...
Who in there right mind would even give me the idea to run for President? As you just read I would the worst President ever! I'd want a photo shoot in the oval office. Man the white house could hold some pretty sweet ass parties though. There I go again...dreamin'. Let's just stop while we're ahead! No President here, but we never talked about vice President did we?!

My Eulogy of Golden

I grew up in Golden, Colorado. My grandparents lived just off of Washington Street up the hill from Parfet Park were, for those of you who know Golden, they put on Buffalo Bill Days. I remember like it was yesterday all the fun my cousins and I would have at my grandparents house.
My grandpa would give of us each a dollar to walk down to the 7-eleven and get a candy bar. We would each get something different and share. On the way down the hill we would race then we would stick your little fingers in the change return on the pay phone to see if anyone left their money behind, just like grandpa did. When we got back up to their house my grandma would always have something fun for us to do. There were days we would go out to the garden and pick fresh raspberries. Grandma would tell us not to eat them so she could wash them and make a pie but we did anyway. There were fresh honey suckles growing up the fence and grandpa taught us how to suck the "honey" out. Grandma would take us to the out door swimming pool one days when they brought out the big blow up Clifford for everyone to jump on. And when we were done swimming we would get a snack of our choice. Those were the days.
Things are so different now. My grandparents have both passed away. The 7-eleven is gone, the pool is gone, my grandparents garden is gone. In fact all of Golden is, to me, gone. People are building condos, hotels, and new restaurants. They stole the home town feel away from everyone who knew my Golden. I still love Golden, but it is no longer my Golden. It will forever bring up those old memories. But instead of standing in front of the pool, I stand in front of a parking lot and imagine the pool. I can sometimes hear my grandparents yelling at us kids. I still imagine running around their garden causing trouble with my cousins. I still imagine racing down the hill to the old 7-eleven. But never again will I be able to relive those moments, I just keep them tucked away in my heart.