09/22/08

Many people go there. That place where trees look like there leaves and needles are slumping over. As soon as you walk outside you see them, the poor things are so close together as if in a sea of loneliness. When you go there you might here the wind blow, although it feels so good on your skin you can here the trees begin to cry. Very little flowers bloom there and the ones that do are thinking if they want to be there in the first place. Everything is cemented. Cemented in their prison with no where to grow. When you look at them they'll show you that they're dying. I am guessing from the lack of attention. Oh wait...a women walks through them, walking on their roots as is to be stomping on their hearts. As she approaches you can see the lit cigarette in her mouth and she flicks ash down upon them. Well at least these trees aren't alone. I am here!

My tattoos and piercings!

Yes and I do have piercings and tattoos! I love them all! I have two tatts! My first one is of a dove holding a ribbon with "WW" on the ribbon. This means a lot to me because it is for my grandparents. The dove I choose was on both of their funeral announcements and the "WW" stands for William and Wanda. This is the tattoo that I look at everyday and pray that one day I will see them again!

My other tatt says "Fly Me Home." Then it has two angle wings with a cross in the middle! Most people don't understand this one, but that is the cool part...I don't care! I am a very spiritual person and to me home is heaven. I'm waiting for the day God returns or I die! Okay so now you think I crazy. I love my life and don't want to die by any means, but it represents the hardship in life!

Now on to piercings. I have my ears pierced five times. Two in each lobe and one in my cartilage. I also have my belly button done. I love my navel!!!!! It is not for anyone but me! I love to play with it and my stomach doesn't look so boring! I want more, but with being a working adult (scary words right there) I just can't.

Bottom line is that I love my body art and I don't care what anyone has to say about it! You don't like it don't look! I promise I'm a nice person!

BIRTHDAY

So my birthday is on Saturday! I'm turning 20! It's not like I am old or anything, but is making me think about my life! What am I really doing? Going to school, working, spending time with my family and boyfriend. Some days I know what I want to do with my life and other days I have no idea!
Since I work in an Emergency Room I see a lot of things. It makes me realizes that I need to have more fun in my life and grow up more all at the same time! People say life only gets harder and I understand that, but I think this will be the hardest time of my life. Still living with my parents, but trying to move on. Wanting to live my own life, but not making enough money to and not truly knowing what I want to do.
Oh my now I'm rambling! Okay deep breath....I'm going to enjoy my birthday and go with the flow! Heck I only turn 20 once right! Now the 21st will be the best! We're already planning for Vegas!

Images

Everywhere you go there are images of people. Magazines, TV, brouchers, books, the internet, school, work...the list goes on and on! America trys to conform people. Every time you look at pictures from the media, even something local, you see "beautiful people." Well at least the media's idea of beautiful.
The sad thing is young women and even men see these things and they think that is what they need to look like. Even very young children, the cartoons these days are just insane. Artists draw girls super skinny and with hardly any clothes on. These children watching are just kids...come on now!
I'm 20 and I of course watch TV shows that have these super thin beautiful girls. So I tell my boyfriend, "Honey I'd look perfect too if I had someone do my hair, make-up and pick my clothes. But I don't want to be like them, I'm me!" I know I'm not perfect, neither are those so called "perfect people." I am me....so just be you. People are drawn to confidence, so show everyone that you don't care what the media says, that picture you see in the mall, what size your jeans are...God made you that way for a reason so enjoy the gift of life!

The McCain Speech

Okay so I watched the McCain speech and about fell asleep. I like him and he has all of my respect because of his history in the armed forces, but I think we heard that enough! I am going to take a stab in the dark here...I say the focal point of his speech is that he loves his country and wants to make it better!
McCain is not a very strong speaker in my opinion. To me his speech was all over the place. I had a hard time focusing on him. I think he would be a great president, but I'm sick of hearing his war stories. You've heard them once, and it touched you deeply, but then he just keeps bringing it up over and over again. So yes tell me the story of the hero you are and that you love your country! Then move on...
I guess some of you reading this might not like my idea of his speech. I am pretty grumpy today. Let's bring it back down shall we. McCain loves his country and all of the people in it. If he really wants to bring about a change I am all for it! I do also respect him for not slamming Obama like Obama slammed him. It shows that he is the bigger man. And on that note I think I will stop rambling!